B and I are moving in together. I've finally switched jobs to hopefully give me a fuller, less hectic life. We'll be building a beautiful life in a small house...we got a house in the city for such an awesome deal! There were rainbows along the way, literally. Sure, it's because we were having quite a bout of rain at the time, so one could say it's all coincidence, but I tend to see them as signs---signs that something better was coming up.
I usually see signs for the worse, so this time, I'll take them for the best. It'll be quiet. I'll play and he'll write. I look forward to my mind's rest and to deep breaths.
At first I didn't think my parents would like this whole arrangement too much. They're the conservative types. But, (and this is why the rainbows must have been a sign of divine intervention) they're all good with it. Me! Living with a boy that I'm not married to. My mind is blown.
I was stroking his face and hair while he lay on my lap. And I told him that I was glad I wrote that letter 3 years ago now. Wow! Three years ago. Such anguish and anxiety accompanied that letter. But I did know this could be really good and I'm glad I told him so.
And now I'm sleepy. In a way it's difficult to continue to keep this blog secret as I have to try and sneak time to do it, leading to fewer posts these days. Actually, no...it's because I've been busy living and not feeling like writing about it. Weird. But I'll keep coming back to this, I know it. For now, sweet dreams.
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