I realize that I'm enjoying doing things by myself. I say over and over again that I don't want my happiness to be completed by someone else.
I want to accomplish what I want to accomplish, unfettered by pressures to do something for someone else.
Overall, I am pretty happy. It's really hard, though, not having someone close to share it with. I remember that I felt like this just before I met and eventually fell for my first love.
I'm beginning to think that happiness can't be separated from people. I wouldn't be happy if my friends weren't around, my family.
So basically, I'm wondering how realistic it is to think that I can be completely happy without someone who really knows me; without someone who can share intimately in the ups and downs on the road to happiness.
In the meantime, I'll just have to closely approximate that, I suppose.
